Wednesday, April 23, 2014

The Hallway

Life is so weird sometimes.  In the blink of an eye everything can just change.  I've been in the change before, or the "hallway".  I hate it and it's never comfortable, but such is life.  I've documented on this here blog countless breakups with the boy.  Just shy of 4 years together, at least 4 breakups and a million memories, we decided to call it quits.  I ugly cried, he (surprisingly) didn't.  It's been just less than a month, and for a few days in a row I'm feeling better.  Last week?  Ugh, last week was PAINFUL.  And social media never helps. And tears and unanswered phone calls don't help either (oops).  But, we both know this is it, we knew for a while that it wasn't working, that I wanted to get married, that he didn't, ect, ect. So just like that, we ended it.  I'm sure we will run into each other and say the casual hello, but I think we both know that that hello can't turn back into us being together (again).  We just don't work, even though I wish we did. 


Today, I am working on myself, reading, writing, going back to therapy.  I even hit up a few al-anon meetings (best program ever, seriously).  I'm not shy about 12 step programs, I have 10 years success, they work.  I'm running, crossfitting, going out with my gals.  This new life doesn't have to suck.  I'm determined to NOT let it suck! I've wasted too much time being unhappy with the wrong person, time to find the right one.

I'm also losing weight. I've given up the wheat for good (also documented here countless attempts to get with it regarding my food),  It's been 30 days and I feel amazing.  Down 8 pounds and a bunch of inches.

I have no clue what the future holds, but I will make it a good one! 

And before I forget...Nike women's half this weekend! I'm excited to run (even though I'm not really trained) and have fun!

Monday, March 10, 2014


When I don't post, I'm realizing I can't remember ANYTHING for these monthly recaps!

Feb was a work filled with work, work and more work.  I was stretched a bit above my comfort zone and was ok with it....I didn't cry and I got through one of the biggest projects I'll probably have to do here.  Good stuff!

Workout wise - I was at my gym more than normal, treadmill, pump and jump, spin....went to CF once and had a bunch of runs including an 8 mile fun run put together by the local running store. I think I skied 2x, all the usual things.

Ah, lame.  But that's all I got...looking forward to an awesome March.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Woops, Forgot to post My Dec Recap!

Wow, December FLEW by!!!! 

In a nutshell...

Christmas, really awesome, lots of cool gifts exchanged and received (I love the giving part a little more though, seeing loved ones excited about a gift rocks).

NYE, it sort of sucked, which I think is normal. I'm always in a funky space, expectations out of control, me and the boy a little on edge....typical. I should add, the party we went to did not suck, in fact it was the perfect quiet night with friends.

Working out, hmm...let's see....I got in a few Crossfit sessions, I ran some miles, the longest being 8 miles in the snow in Central Park (amazing).  I went back to spin and embraced the 'mill. Oh and I placed first in the Athena category at the Ho Ho Ho run!  Not a PR, although I was only off by about 30 seconds which completely amazed me.

Weight, gained back those same damn 3 pounds.  I'm back to square one.  Nutritionist tomorrow.  Why do I suck at losing weight???? 

Random, Ranger game with front row (literally behind the bench) seats, executive suite. Pink concert with my dad, also up in the suites, a party with the coolest tri team around.

I'd say Dec was a hit!

Goodbye January!

January, where did you go....and of course I'm a posting slacker....just keeping it consistent :)

Here is the low down on the month -

Ran some longs (7 and 8 miles in Central Park), the Sayville Run to The Brewery 10 miler. No Crossfit and barely any miles the last 2.5 weeks.

I skied a bunch.

I gave a kick ass 2 hour work presentation at my national sales meeting.

I ate amazing meals (Peekamoose!).

I cut back on wheat (I think I broke my denial, ya, it's annoying me too).

I saw Gabrielle Bernstein with my BFF Amy from CT.  While it wasn't as life changing for me as others, I enjoyed her message and have really gotten into listening to her podcasts. 

Girls is back on, and I'm digging the new season.

Lastly, a  fellow runner was hit by a car in very dense fog and didn't make it,  My hills team ran in his honor at the Brew Run, while I didn't personally know him, my heart still hurts.  Runners, we need to be safe! Drivers, look around and DON'T TEXT! I swear running has made me a better driver!

Thursday, December 5, 2013

This Life

Sometimes this life I get to live is just too much...too incredible...too, beyond what I ever thought it would be.

This week has been fun and exhausting and worth officially breaking my running streak for! Because of work I was gifted tickets to see Fuerza Bruta on Tue and Big Fish (I loved it, theater critics you are WRONG!)  last night which meant 2 days in the best city in the world.  Plus I got to ski on Sun, I lost 3 pounds (the 3 I had gained) and I get to hang with my friends and smile and know, poop rainbows and unicorns. 

So without sounding ridiculous, I'm just happy.  Happiness comes easy to me, but there was a time where I was literally drowning in the life I created.  I was fat, I drank (wayyyy to much) smoked (waaaaaay too much) was negative all the time and was basically living life with my eyes closed. 

Today?  Today, I have changed all of that and then some.  I've talked about all of this before, so while it's redundant, I'm feeling too good not to share. 

My guess is that most readers are somewhat on a healthy life mission, because I for one was not reading about running when I was struggling through my early 20's. But just know that if life sucks, it can change. You don't have to get stuck in a rut, ever. 

Ok, so off my optimistic soap box, back to the reality which is a pile of work I have to get to.

Tonight, tonight is back to crossfit or a run.  Ahh, this life!

Monday, December 2, 2013

Breaking the Streak

I broke my streak! AHH! To be fair, I was up at 4:30, in the pouring rain, to go ski.  I think the new rule is run everyday except for ski trips, because realistically I can always get in one mile. 

I've managed daily crossfit and running and almost no bagels.  My nutritionist will be happy, hopefully. 

The goal was to consume no man made carbs (with the exception of Thanksgiving) to see a jump in weight loss and to cleanse me from what is seriously a full blown carb addition (I know! That sounds ridiculous, but it's true!!).  I failed, but I'm down I think 2 pounds (of the 3 I had gained back). 

Tomorrow I weigh in. 

And somehow this post went from my running streak to weight loss.  Sigh...