Tired, Tired and Cranky!

Whaa! I'm beat...between the heat, a lack of running, super sore Crossfit legs and a trip to the city last night, I just want to curl up in a ball under my desk and take a nap. Or call in sick. But I'm far too responsible these days for that.

Last night I met my best friend in the city for a fancy dinner at Asia de Cuba. This place has been on my top 10 for awhile so I was thrilled to see their menu as part of Restaurant Week. Sadly, I was pretty disappointed. We waited a while for our table which was no biggie as we were catching up, but I was starving and the food, was...bland. I couldn't believe it, I mean we are talking Asian/Cuban fusion. We had the beef pot-stickers 2 ways, calamari salad (so absolutely bland) and crispy tofu, Amy chose some coconut thing for dessert which I also didn't care for (but I'm not a coconut gal). I was bummed, and I have to say they chose main staples from their regular menu as part of the RW promotion, so I was super surprised at how not good everything was. Oh well. I had a great time catching up with my bestie and food is just food, good or bad...(although my inner fat girl is a little mad about it...pout!).

This week was really light on the running. I skipped my 5 miler, was going to run it tonight but it's about 110 degrees out and I have a 10 miler on tap for tomorrow. I also did a trial Crossfit workout and I'm still sore - who knew a 20 minute beginner WOD would make my quads sore to the touch! Still not sure how I feel about Cfit, but I'm going to give it a shot for a month, I have foundations classes set up for next week, plus running, plus my half! Should be a fun one!!

Ok, off to brave the heat and with all the other hot, cranky people of Long Island.

I'm Running a Marathon

I still can't believe it sometimes.

Me, a marathoner?

But it's true. And I have the training logs (and the coach) to prove it.

So far so good. I've been getting through my miles, killing my long runs, running with new to me running partners. I'm really enjoying it, and MOTIVATED, which is so amazing.

This weekend is another 10 miler in prep for next week's half which I'm super stoked for.

Like always, I'm struggling with balance and sleeping in - life would be thismucheasier if I got my morning workouts in, but it's getting better, with the exception of 2 missed swims....trying to remember: progress, not perfection.

Food Guilt

Like any good dieter or food plan follower, every once in a while I fall off the wagon (umm, today's lunch)..luckily I'm really embracing my plan and am just jumping right back into healthy eating. I have done this on and off for a bit, but basically I am doing my best to eliminate sugar, flour and wheat (s/f/w) from my diet. I followed the FAA food plan when I was first losing weight and managed to lose close to 30lbs (along with a brief Jenny stint to get me started where I lost about 20). I've put about 15 of that back on, which isn't great but I know could be much, much worse.

For the past year or so I have been battling with what works for me, what doesn't and it's obvious that s/f/w just doesn't agree with me. I can eat within my points, calories ect and still not loose, one week off the junk and I'm down 5. Amazing.

So while the last week and a half was a breeze, this week is proving to be a little harder. July 4th eating, some Ralph's ices and a big ass lunch today do not make for a very good food plan, but I'm planning on turning it around and not going all out on bread/brownie/pizza! I'm really focused on losing and getting to my goal which is around 145, which would be an all time low for me but still on the high side for my height.

So that's the plan in a nutshell. I know it works, as long as I work it!

Ok, back to the title of the post - guilt. I have been making most of my meals, checking labels, measuring, weighing, doing all the right stuff, then comes lunch with the co-workers. I rarely go out to chains and when I do I always end up feeling like shit from bad ordering. We ended up at Bertucci's, I had a roll (major no-no) ordered the chicken picatta and subbed grilled veggies for pasta. It all sounds innocent but I'm waaaaay over my calories (and even though my plan isn't about calories, I still track on daily plate). And, I feel major guilt about it! Even though I swam this morning and am planning on a run after work, I still know that I overate. I'm not going to go all hairy-carey on myself, but I need to be more mindful of my triggers when I am out, which may mean that I skip lunch out all together. I hate to be so rigid, but right now rigidity works and like I said, I want to work it! And rock that bikini by the end of the summer!

Gratitude

Taking a que from one of my favorite yoga blogs, I thought it would be nice to remember all that I'm grateful for. I've been a little lax on the posting lately, but I have a bunch of things I'm planning on blogging about this week, I just need to find some time! Ahh!

Life and good, and here is why:

I have amazing people in my life
I discovered a great new kitty litter system (yay for Olive and for me!)
My running has been great
I have legs that work and allow me to run, practice yoga, walk...ect!
I like my parents, more than they probably know
I'm alive and present
I'm actively working on my "stuff"
No bread (although I did have 1 slip, I'm ok with it!)
The village pool is open for 6am lap swim
Iced coffee
Yoga, which I'm desperately in need of

There is so much more, I'm a lucky gal.