35

This past weekend was my 35th birthday.

35

Wow.

So there are days that I'm ok with everything in my life, then there are days that I wish some small stuff would change, then there are days like last week when I felt like WTF is wrong with me and how the hell am I 35 already!!!!!!!

When I turned 25 I had a typical quarter life crisis which led me to completely turn my life around by 26.  It was amazing and I'm grateful.  I've made tons of changes and truly am a better person (cliche!). I gave up booze, then butts, gained a bunch of weight, started running, s-l-o-w-l-y lost some weight then really began to run.  By 30 I was feeling good, looking good but I was single and lonely.  I stayed single for what felt like forever until I met the boy.  We just celebrated 2 years (although you could say not in a row as there has been some breakups along the way). And now I'm feeling like OK, now what?

Gulp.

I think this is what a midlife crisis feels like, except I think a midlife crisis happens when you hit 50 not 35.

In true midlife crisis fashion, I'm playing around with going back to school, something I previously had no desire to do.  I'm thinking about a certificate program at FIT.  Nothing too strenuous, more along the lines of fun and something to get me out of my bubble.  I'm also thinking about a tri (kidding, still no desire!!).

I'm not sure what the future holds, but I do know that it's out of my control (so deep) and I'm just here to enjoy the ride, so that's what I'm going to try and do!

Cheers to 35!